Monday, January 24, 2011

"Clean Time Doesn't Matter."

I am so sick and tired of going to meetings and hearing someone say that.  It matters a hell of a lot.  I can't remember the last time I was clean for 24 days.  Every day is a damn miracle.  I realize I need to get a sponsor, do service work, follow the steps, but DAMN.  I hear so many conflicting views on this.  It's just irritating to have something I'm so proud of be spit on like that.

Clean time absolutely matters to me.  I get my 30 day key tag next Monday, and I'll probably bawl like a baby.

2 comments:

  1. it totally does the longer it goes and it is a length of time you should look at and be happy about. It only doesn't matter in that it will only ever take once to drop that number back to 0 good luck on your Journey I am here cheering for you!

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  2. Thank you wonderful woman, I appreciate that more than you could know!! Who would have thought we would have become the best of friends? I love you and thank you for your support on my journey!

    It only takes one pick up to fall back down, and I'm tired of falling. Time to run. :)

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