"Just For Today..."

What an amazing few days this has been.  Despite feeling useless and down on myself I have accomplished so much!! I cleaned our entire house, top to bottom, made Chicken Tikka Masala (which I'll post more about tomorrow), got my new social security card all set up, as well as gained an NA sponsor.  Things between S and I have been happy and wonderful, I even gifted him the new Gwar CD, "Bloody Pit of Horror" and it is absolutely awesome!!
I'm regaining touch with my higher power and that is a slow and steady process.  I've even begun to have dreams again.  This isn't something that happens often, and if they do I don't remember them, let alone have them more than once.  Last week I had a dream two nights in a row where I was just drinking and drinking water out of a clear round glass.  I drank and drank and drank.  That was my dream.  I thought it odd, and neglected to look it up to find meaning.  Now, writing this blog and reflecting I had to do so, and I found something so relevant....it's almost scary.  It said "To dream that you are drinking water represents spiritual refreshment.  You will find resolution by looking within yourself and your past.  Alternatively the dream may indicate you are really thirsty."  I hydrate often, and despite our house being dry, I don't get dehydrated.  I've been more conscious about drinking water, but I felt so taken aback by the relevance of the beginning of it.  That is precisely what I have been doing these last 28 days.  I'm through externalizing everything, the root of the problem generally lies within one's self.  I feel spiritually refreshed.  I haven't been talking to my higher power just yet, it honestly scares me....but the small things, just believing, have made such a difference for me.  I started wearing my protection amulet again every day, and it gives me strength.  I'm finding joy in the manifestations of my God around me; the melting icicles on S and I's house, the adorable ridiculousness of our two adorable kitties, S's hand on my face, the glint of the sun on a cold winter's day.  It reminds me that God is all around me as I see her.  For that today I am thankful.