Now I do. On the phone with my mother this morning I remarked at how much I loved my boyfriend, and how he makes me want to be a better person. She asked me how long I'd known him and how I knew, and I gave her the easy answers. Of course, later on I always think of the things I should have said.
Getting dressed for the evening out of my comfy day clothes I put on a shirt I feel plain and unattractive in. I remembered a few weeks ago, the first time I had worn it in front of S, and his reaction. "You look beautiful, baby."
Even when I feel plain and ugly, he thinks I'm beautiful.
Even when I screw up home made ravioli and we have to order out, he tells me it's okay, and it would have been delicious.
Even when I think I can't stay clean, he gives me strength to keep going.
That's how I know.
Let me tell you something I know I have said in private: I am so glad you guys are together and that he is helping you on your journey. I am so glad that he is helping you see how beautiful you are and that you are worth the world. You deserve such things and even more. *HUGS*
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